The Call....

Dia just called me, calling me after 4 days without any text. I am so grateful with that, at least Dia still remember me, still wanna talk with me, and still i guess making me one of important person for sure. For me, i'm still standing for a lies, for unreal story, and for a fantasy. Do i feel happy? No for sure.... i actually not so interested as i am in the previous. Too dark right? That was my bad, but i don't want to feel i am special anymore. It was hurt, whenever you thought you are special but actually you're not at all. So i make up my mind, i just let it be in the name of UKHWAH. I don't wanna hurt my self and will never be. Really need to avoiding my self for overthinking about Dia. Ya Allah, i'm not prefering my doa in a blog like this. But i really want to pray, for giving me a strength for ukhwah that we had. Light me with Your knowledge so i can learn much more to get close to You. As i am getting strong, wish my iman will getting stronger. Allah hu Alam. KeranaMU kami bertemu, keranaMu juga kami mohon untuk setiap keberkatan atas persaudaraan ini. Aaamiin :D